Thursday, July 16, 2009

I Have Always Known

Do you sometimes wonder where the future is heading? Do you stop to dream, only to let those visions drip away like an ice-cream left to melt in your hands?

These are some questions that come to my mind every now and then; when I face disappointing situations; when I brush shoulders with chances; when I aspire for greater things.

Many times, I wonder why it is so easy to get depressed. Why do negative thoughts come like a little leech that quietly seeps into our socks, sticks onto our skin and drains out all the blood it can? Why does happiness seem so hard to reach?

There are many known causes of unhappiness: fixation on negative thoughts, jealousy, low self esteem, hopelessness, attempting to obtain impossible perfection, trying to reason anything and everything, feeling that the whole world is against you, and the list goes on.

Delving deeper into the heart, I summed up unhappiness to 3 things: fear of uncertainty, fear of failure and excessive reasoning.

Fear of uncertainty: sometimes life is like a roller coaster ride. Things soar into the skies, and before you know it, you’re back on ground zero. You just can’t see what’s coming. So, why fear what you don’t know? Just take them as they come.

Fear of failure: wondering if you’ll make it; whether your ideas will work out or if you’re making a stupid mistake. You’ve been through it before and you hope it’s not another slip-up. But, so what if things don’t work out? Just try again!

Excessive reasoning: Trying to explain everything around. Questioning the past, the present, the future – answers that never were, and probably never will be. Sometimes you sabotage my own happiness by thinking too much. Just need to ask God the grace to "accept the things you cannot change, change the things you can and wisdom to know the difference" – the serenity prayer.

And as I contemplate all these, immediately the sweet smile and adorable face of Amelia Earheart in “Night at the Museum 2” comes to mind. She played the role of one who lived each moment to the fullest. She loved adventure. She didn’t crack her head for reasons, or what if she’ll get lost over the Pacific Ocean. She simply did things for the fun of it!!

Being a wax figurine that would freeze at the break of dawn, the lead character Larry Daley really didn’t know how to tell the lovable woman about the brevity of her life – that the thrill would end in just fleeting hours!

What truly touched my heart was her reflective kiss as she hushed him; as she held back her tears and bid him goodbye -”I know…” She said, “I have always known…”

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